The Essence of a Mother

It must be a blissful life when you can live on an island.   There are no cares, worries, or agendas to follow.  A place where you can just lay on the shore in the cold water of February and feel the warmth of the sunbeams on your face. Then there's the s earch for sea shells   and funny looking sea creatures... There is an internal joy of just letting go of stuff,  responsibilities of the "real world"  to experience a sense of freedom A freedom to just be to fly to laugh to act goofy or to just sit and think!! Lately I've been doing a lot of thinking,  pondering,  reflecting... I've been in a season of solitude.   sometimes a mama needs to do that  to realize what matters most in life. Why is it that life becomes so demanding sometimes?   I think there's an invisible expectation of what should be accomplished. Maybe it's  certain car...

Traveling has been on my mind lately...but not just to travel but to "live in travel".  I've been thinking alot about us becoming location independent and just letting God and life lead us to where we should live.  It excites me to think about the possibility of it coming to pass.   Could we actually do this? Where would we go? I've told Donnie that I've been thinking of staying in every one of the 50 states in 50 weeks.... umm...ok maybe not exactly every 50 but the lower 48.   I think if I ended up in Alaska or Hawaii....I'd have to extend my stay just a bit.   I actually had this conversation with him a few months back....it went like this:  Me :  So I was thinking me and the kids would camp in our tent in every state in 50 weeks? Donnie :  Huh?  What?  Did I hear you right? Me:  Yeah...there are tons of families that do this all the time.  I would homeschool and we would l...

My blog is a place of therapy for me. Yeah...it's therapeutic for me. So why the heck wouldn't I use this platform more often? Does that mean...I've been having some good days...so no need for "therapy blogging"? I don't know...actually Anyhow... Hope all is well in your neck of the woods.  UP Michigan Christmas 2016 I decided to type today because I don't feel like going on Facebook and sharing my life because there is always so much stuff going on in my mind that some of my friends would : unfriend me love me more hate me more think I had the best life ever roll their eyes think I had serious issues why don't I ever like their pics she posts to many pics why haven't I seen Chris lately did she leave the church... I like her...she's so sweet She's not really that organized She shares way to many posts.... I guess I could go on...but why really?   This bl...

It's my 45th birthday today. Here's what I did... Awoke at 6:30 Started the oatmeal Started the coffee.  Woke up the kids.  Several times....more than three Received 9 birthday greetings some kisses, some hugs, some quick  "happy birthday mom..I should have planned something" yeah...it's like that sometimes I know they love me! made some lunches for the 4 youngest one of the older ones says "can you make mine...?" couldn't find baby girl's sneakers...what's new ..you're wearing your glittery dress shoes for PE The older girl drives them to school because it's Senior long lunch and needs the van bonus for me...no need to rush out this morning.  Sat on the couch took a deep breath sipped on my Cafe con Leche from my favorite Latin restaurant Donnie brought it home this morning.... love turned on the tv watched a few minutes of Good Morning A...

Yes it has been a long time since I blogged.        Why? I don't know exactly.   I guess I just never made the time to type away my thoughts of life and such.  And of course just the busyness of raising eight children.  This can take a bit of time. There is always some sort of  question asked,  problem to solve,  teen issues to handle,    bickering to break-up.         But.... There is always time for fun!!       Enjoyment!! Everything nice! I've decided that if I make my posts short and sweet,  with meaning, maybe I will make the time to blog.   It's sort of like jogging  (something I have been doing for some months now). Just the thought of going jogging  and the time it will take to run those miles..... it makes you not want to jog at all....

Its been two years since I've posted last.  Wow.  Time sure flies. I am sure I have lost most if my bloggy friends. Those who haven't lost hope and your thoughts have been "when is she coming back" or "what ever happened to joyful mother?" Lots of growth, and learning of Gods love  and grace. Boy have I changed my thinking from my old days. I feel so free today. Free in so many ways.  I won't go into all the details of the past two years however I do want to let all of you know today was the first day for my kids in school. Yep. I am no longer a homeschool mom.  Lunches packed.  Supplies in their packs,  Donning pressed school uniforms. Loaded up in the van.  Smiles.  Butterflies in their bellies.  Not sure what to think.  "What!  Mommy comes back in the afternoon?  "How long is that?" Kisses goodbye.  Tears in this momma's eyes.  Chris

Welcome back.....ME.....   well at least for now.   Who has time to blog anymore?.... NOT ME! I noticed the last time I posted anything was about our June Vacation.   Wow-weee! Lots has happened since then.... One amazing thing is that we moved! Yay!! Back to our town and into our own home! Yay!! I finally have my own house!  I absolutely love to walk around my own house!  I love it! There is no place like home...truly....your own place. We found this great house in a wonderful neighborhood filled with nature parks, a playground and lots of trees.  Our home is about 2400 square feet with 5 bedrooms and 3 bathrooms!  I never had this before. Actually two of the bedrooms are split by a half wall, so the older girls get to have their own "private" space....to decorate and fix up as they please.  They love it.  I have a "computer room" or school room......