The Essence of a Mother

I know I've mentioned how I'm on this soul searching thingy.... Well... let me elaborate I found myself coming to a place of just....unhappiness yep.....this joyful mother was feeling :( I know by looking at my life and my sweet family, first words would be... "wow...she must be so happy...and blessed" Yes, I am indeed! But.... in my inner most part of my soul, I've been dissatisfied with the way things have been going in the raising of my family. I have been seeking the Lord with my heart and asking Him to show me things that needed to change Well....I guess He's sorta pointed those things out. To name a few: Contentment is definitely a key Ridding our home life of busyness is something highly needed Enjoying my kids as "kids" Create a beautiful environment to bring love, joy, peace and satisfaction ... Having fun, exploring, and enjoying everyday life as a gift So in my search, I've asked close friends to give me ideas, tips, or just enco...

This Moment ~~~~ inspired by SouleMama "....capturing a moment from the week. A simple, special, extraordinary moment. A moment I want to pause, savor and remember."

Yesterday I was in a very strange and again.... complex mood. I really wasn't a very nice person to be around I was a total grouch So much for my peace, lovin', happy mom attitude.. yeah baby... you gotta believe it... it was quite scary i didn't exercise I didn't watch my portions food portions that is I don't even know what I did... i didn't even keep the kids on task I think I just walked around in circles all day confused and not sure where I was... Okay....I knew where I was, but you know what I mean.... It was "one of those days" Yeah, it was a rather complex day But today..... Oh today.... was a much, much better day of wonderful moments shared with my babies..... Donnie worked from home today, so I had access to my van remember....his car is broken down...i'm usually stranded at home :( last week we went to the a huge sink hole that is a geological site. Didn't post about this field trip. ...

No, not my mind!! my FAT! After being preggo almost every other year I am ready to lose this FAT My plan is to lose about 50 lbs of blubber by the time I turn 40 this December. So...if I lose 2 lbs a week I think I can reach my goal I remember when I had lost some weight about 10 years ago right before my 30th birthday... I went down to my pre-pregnancy weight and looked pretty darn good. :) Here is a picture of me at my wonderful 30th birthday outing in Tampa, Florida Just thought I would act a little wild and crazy So today is the official kick off of the fat coming off. To be honest.....I am a little hesitant to let you know what I'm doing why??? because this means...... you are going to be expecting me to lose the weight hmmm.. heeeeeyyyyyyyy...... by telling you will make me accountable and maybe more determined to stick with it welllll....I'm still a little hesitant. Oh well....what can I do about it now, since I already told you... no turning back now....yikes! So.......

I need to express myself today I am feeling a bit.....I don't know complex yeah....i guess that's the word to use soooo.......i'm doing this search trying to discover myself yet again :) it can get a bit complex i guess.....that's how i am making it at this very moment a bit complex why????????? well it all happened because a neighbor of mine came by nooooooooo i'm not upset because she came by and caught me looking like I stepped out of a garbage can not at all... thank god she didn't dare walk over the dirt and mud my children have created in my front yard she stayed in her nice air conditioned SUV with her hair all nicely done she probably smelled really nice she had pretty make up her nails and toes were probably manicured she just rolled down the window and asked if her son was over he wasn't I had just walked out to yell at the dog "ANGEL...STOP BARKING" the dog always seems to sneak out to the front and terrorize eve...

blah, blah, blah, blah, blah...... are you tired of me rambling..... wait I haven't even begun yet. ha ha..... and no not blah....like life is blah....I mean blah, blah, blah.... here I go again...talking away...rather, typing away So where do I begin.....oh yeah how about a picture of me driving.....I'm sure it's something EVERYONE wants to see.... I had a rather lovely day today.... a day filled with summer laziness.... rising late having some brunch going out with some friends coming home to my babies (nice to have built-in babysitters) running to the grocery store (which is a frequent venture) Here is a little video I made..... oops sorry but the camera was flipped and can't flip the pic so you gotta view it side ways..... and for those who didn't understand a word I was saying.... I said, the girl at the check-out carded me (in other words--- I.D.'d me ) she actually thought I was under 21 when I told her I was ALMOST 40 (I think in the video I say I am 40...

{this moment} A Friday ritual~~~Inspired by Soulemama "A single photo - no words - capturing a moment from the week. A simple, special, extraordinary moment. A moment I want to pause, savor and remember. "