The Essence of a Mother

  I don't know if you all know but this year has been quite a struggle for us in the area of finances.   At the beginning of the year, my husband launched his business and within a few months he was off looking for a regular job.  Not that the business failed.... It's just that money ran out for us and we needed instant money to pay our basic needs (rent, lights, gas, food, etc...)  Around March or so my husband began working with his friend.   This was a blessing since he didn't have to apply for a job.  It was instant cash to meet our needs.   I have to admit though, that during this time I struggled in my heart. I felt somewhat depressed.  I stepped back a bit in my heart and reflected on life....  asking the Lord where He was directing me to.   and all of us.... I've had many mixed emotions  Had many ups and downs about not knowing what would come next.   Yeah....I know I just typed a blog post a...

Ups and downs downs and ups Sometimes life feels like a roller coaster ride Not knowing what tomorrow may bring. Life has been a bit like this lately for me. New things exciting things scary things and then not really knowing what is coming around the corner but staying peaceful.... Grace fills my heart knowing the Lord is leading Yep...there may be things I might not want to happen but then it might just happen This week is going to be extra busy I'm getting the kids schooling ready and the panicky feeling is hitting home ok...not home per se but my insides...yeah, I'm peaceful about the bigger picture of my life Summer is ending for us  I feel like I didn't really get that much done. I did enjoy it very much though...it's been so refreshing to   CHILL Still things remain unfinished thus the panic I have many plans and hoping I can get those to happen We'll see.... School will start (hopefully) next week... that's if everything...

Me with  Faye and Lena   For the past few months on Friday afternoons,  I have been meeting up with two fantastic ladies.   These women have touched my heart in so many ways I can't even explain.  Both of them are women who love the Lord and hunger for for more of Him in their lives. Me, being the youngest of the three, have gained so much wisdom from them.  Faye and Lena The older of us three is like a mother figure to me,  her name is Faye.   She is an amazing woman who has so much wisdom to offer.   I have bonded with her closely and am so thankful for God bringing her into my life.  She has a blog... so if you want to check her out....go on over to visit her here . Then there's my sweet friend Lena... You know she's moving next week???  I am a bit sad this week because her move.   I don't know what I'll do without Lena checking up on me.  She is an amazing woman who is probably one ...

This post is to honor my sister on her birthday... Today she is a year older.....36 to be exact!   I call her Andy....   She is my younger sister.... Growing up I always felt she seemed much older though... :) She's was the bossy one... the know it all... somewhat of a mother hen....ha ha Yep...that's Andy! She is beautiful and I have always thought she was and is... She always had the looks Tall Thin Long brown hair Gorgeous... Oh and she's always had such a keen eye for decorating and organizing something I never had an eye for and sorta still don't  but that's for another post... Her side of the room was always much better than mine... ha ha!! Anyway... Her birthday is rather special today.... because early in 2007 she was diagnosed with  advanced breast cancer... I remember clearly the day my mother called me to break the news I didn't know how to respond other than I knew I was to pray The interesting thing was that a few m...

I had found myself living a life by accident instead of on purpose.     What does this mean?   Well lots of things..... For one.... my life had started to become rather boring.... I wasn't really creating beautiful moments in my life or making sure things happened They were just happening.... And believe it or not it was a bit dull.... or maybe I was becoming a bit dull or depressed I don't know.... But this is how my soul searching thing began you all know that part... Interesting what happens when I decide to make things happen???? You see, I am a person who has great ideas... novel inventions... (maxi pads with wings was my idea when I was 13) but these ideas tend to stay in my mind I find it hard sometimes to make them come forth I then beat myself up thinking I'm worthless I have no clue about mothering What sort of 'JOYFUL' mother am I anyway Gosh....I am such an awful wife who is ungrateful Why can't I do more for my husband or my fam...

Life had become so overwhelming for me when Donnie was away with the older two  children.  It seemed we hardly ever had time to really talk about life anymore I started to feel disconnected with him I really don't like this feeling I am not a surface type of person and when "problems" in life begin to brew..... look out!!   I will do what it takes to make things better.... Even if we have to make an emergency get-a-way... I wanted just one day... one whole day alone with him. Sooooo.... Donnie asked his sweet mom to watch the children for us while we took a little drive on over to the beach... ahhhhhh I think the beach has become one of my favorite places to be.... There is something that takes place deep in my heart when I come face to face with the massive ocean and the waves.... The breeze blows and there I find some comfort and peace... We had such a great time reflecting and revamping some of our vision, plans, and goals for...